competition

i accidentally hit a button when i was reading jude ultra's blog, led me to a post she wrote in december. end of. she talked of competition. and threw in a gendered analysis-- one i agree with, overall. short version: men compete with others, women compete with themselves. it was funny to see myself in her words-- that yes, i was in fact someone who competes to become a better me than previously i have been. it is my only motivation.
so shall we talk purpose? human consequence? and how does ultra-running fit into this? lisa, how can you say you are an ultra-runner, you haven't even run yet? hahahaaaa... yes. i have not. years ago my dear friend told me why he had not told his parents he was gay. it tortured him, and he said: how can i tell someone i am gay when i haven't yet been with a man?

poignant.

i got me a fancy garmin 305 gps/heartrate monitor... i think it may even make breakfast, if i can figure out which combination of buttons boils the water. i get it tomorrow :) hip hip!!!!!!!! this is good for me cause i want to walk out my front door and go. i don't always want to be on marked trails, or map out distances...f*ck... the whole purpose here in my heart ...is to run. so what a nifty device!!!!
i am heading out shortly for my 'tempo' run -- a quick hard 10k. i look forward to the constant push into high aerobic and into my anaerobic zones... i need this fortitude.

does anyone else Not sweat? hahahaaaa.. truly. i am well hydrated, but i am coming to believe i have an alien efficient cooling systems of super microscopic pores that release liquid that, because of the heat and scale, instantaneously evaporate!

i like feeling lazy and having something to do, and that something is moving. hard.

have a stellar friday evening.

legs

i am not tired. i am hungry.
keep my body moving.
it is sooo gRAnD!!
i am NOt tired. i am hungry.
week one, official, of training.
who knew one could just up and drop hard into something like long distance running. but why the hell not, yes? i have discovered my otherwise abandoned legs. as if somewhere during this lifetime i had given up on them, their potential only potential. and now i am just so curious about them!
i spend all my money on food.
and now wine, also. did you know that i have little difficulty in filling a wine platypus with an unchilled white? scandalous i am certain. but one must be able to endure.

re-start

gosh... to be inspired! i think near all i do is seek and find such. i don't play squirrel with anything, i leave myself with always nothing stored, in store for always new. how often do you change your furniture's arrangement?
i have started to run.
and train for running. by running.
i will be running my first 100mile race in september. with jude ultra! check out her blog. if you like running and adventure craziness!!!!!!!! she is crazy. crazy awesome!!
but back to me.
crazy-pants came over to my house one morning complete with a top-secret lisa-only intensive training workout schedule to prep me for this hundred mile.
i love schedules.
so... sure, i'll blog. i will write of two things: running. and rhetoric. hmmm... that should be my blog name... can i change it?